21 Birthday

This year’s one was really special & definitely memorable ! I think I will remember for life ! HeHe. I never had such surprises before..and no one was ever so sweet to me ! I really wanna thank my dearest -gary for making it such a meaningful birthday for me !!!! Hehe !

明天后，挥别20岁的我！

这几张照片是在昨天拍下来的。闲着没事做就爱拍照的我~哈哈，自恋！自恋-爱自己多一点吧！=P
星期六就过21岁生日的我好期待又无奈。期待受到朋友的祝福，期待将受到的生日礼物。不过，无奈-该怎么度过呢？我不是那种会要开派对，邀请朋友一起来为我庆祝的人。朋友都问我会怎么庆祝？！说实在的“我不知道”！
很想有什么特别的惊喜，但又不敢想太多。怕期望越大，失望越大！嗨~

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~✖I'm feeling Sad for No Reason✖~

First off, please don’t tell me I’m depressed. This isn’t an everyday thing for me and it doesn’t happen often; I just feel like this today. I’m so upset and sad for no reason that I can think of. I was fine earlier and then I just got really sad. I’ve been trying to read, draw, etc. to cheer myself up but nothing’s working. Taking a walk normally cheers me up but right now it’s pouring rain outside. So does anyone know what I could do? dunno what happen with me this few days.totally lost control.start boring with my job d.i need money...that's why im working.i need a vacation.but im working everyday,what to do?nothing special in 2009 for me,it's ald past...but im fucking disappointed with myself coz waste another year in my life,god damn it!get hurt in relationship,betray my ex-bf...fail my exam.heart broken for what i've done.if somebody ask me to list down "HAPPYNESS"&"SADNESS" in 2009.i think the Sadness will be in the 1st place and the list longer than Happyness for sure.my birthday is coming soon...21 years old for suzanne kow.dont feel to celebrate it.leave me alone...it's saturday,and im working too!haha....Sadness makes me feel like crying, and sometimes the tears are hard to stop. Crying often makes me feel better.